I feel clogged up in an important part of my life. Like some huge spider has caught me and spun me into a stifling cocoon. Why must everything be so structured, so rigid, so forced… everyone trying so hard?

Is there a groove we must fit into? If so then I am as ill-fitting as my plastic sparkly prom shoes (my worst shoes ever). But I can’t bring myself to let go of it. But is it because of God or… other things? Fear? Of what? I must find out this summer.

Living with other people this summer should be an interesting experience. I hope that I will be open to God’s lessons wherever I may be. It will be a simple summer:

  • lab like crazy
  • GRE studies
  • (… stepping out of wedding denial?)

EGADS.

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